18 Weeks

That's where I would be in my pregnancy if my sweet little one was still with me. Starting to feel movement. Getting close to finding out if my strong girl vibe was right or not.

My neighbor is pregnant with her first. And second! They found out they're having identical twins! I'm so excited for them, but it is hard to see her starting to get a little pooch. Her babies will be only a few weeks younger than mine would have been.

My other friend miscarried weeks ago and finally had a D&C last week. I just found out about that today.

And several people have made comments leading me to believe they expect I'll be pregnant again soon. But we haven't really decided what to do on that front. I think we're leaning toward waiting. Unless, of course, God has other plans again. It's a heartbreaking decision for me (to wait), but I also wonder if part of that is because I think (probably falsely) that getting pregnant will help heal my heart.

Don't get me wrong - most of the time I'm doing just fine. But it's still never far from my mind.